Well I did it. i completely brought myself to my lowest point and back out again. Not without leaving scars though.
I sure can't wait to get on my own again and be able to think clearly. Feeling constantly strained is just strangling my creativity..among other things.
I just saw a picture of my parents and my brother and realized...not only do I barely know them anymore...but I really don't even care who these people are. That was quite a shock, but it's been slowly taking over...there's not too much I do care about, people or otherwise, specters of the past be damned.
I really need to get that focused feeling back. Thankfully, I have someone around that I really want to share some ideas with...but since I'm so jaded, I doubt it would even matter.
ANYWHO, there's been a lovely chill in the air and I can't wait for my new pair of earbags to come in the mail. There are few things I enjoy more than chilly air and cozy warmth.
As a matter of fact...here's a poem.
Cold Air
Warm Feet
Isabelle
Is Sweet
Earbags Rule.
Ooh Ooh Ooh! I HAVE been being creative in a way. I've been making lots of music. Make this killer song...can't figure out what to do with it though...it needs something.
...*sigh* As much as I love being alone....I really need someone to bounce ideas off of. >.<; Makes this He-Man Woman Hater's duty oh so complicated.
I wonder what my cutie mark would be if I was a pony. Probably would be an interrobang .....shrouded by a glitter cloud.
....ugh..I had something I was going to actually say..and now it's lost.
-__- Just like always. Why do I even bother? My brain is playing hangman in a closet...and this is getting very old. Maybe I'm getting very old. ...or maybe ..just maybe it's 5:31am and I really should have gone to bed before I have to leave for work at 10... *facepalm* GAH